Monday, May 10, 2010

So let's break trusts, tell lies, and burn bridges down.

Friday, April 2, 2010

It's that time of the year

I need to grow up. I need to get over this mourning that has crippled me everytime the end of March comes around. No, it's not the added age, or the formality of being thrown into the realm of adulthood. I guess the "why" part shall linger on for another decade or two.

Perhaps many think of me as ungrateful for instead of swimming in glee, here I am tapping at the keyboardn at 4:53 AM in hopes to pen down my disheveled thoughts. 

Perspective. Always look at the bright side. 

Assuming that this were a dialogue to the self then I say congratulations for taking a step towards recovery. Maybe I really am starting to get over this post-teenage angst or whatnot.

I am not making sense here as I jump from one point to another.

To the 4 sneaky emo now punk'd up people who got around my back and almost jeopardized their HMeffinMEs for a videoshoot, THANK YOU. Not just for the video, but for this, whatever this is that we are. I don't think I thanked you enough the other night. Pardon if it seemed that your efforts weren't appreciated but rest assured that the silence are tantamount to the gratitude that's been overshadowed by cringe fests and the like.



Sunday, February 21, 2010

Mine is a distraction. Yours is a masterpiece.

Friday, February 5, 2010


I promise to clean up in the morning.
Tonight, just let me fall apart as I watch you walk away.

You shone a light on my fears and showed me I had nothing to be afraid of.
Then you left and put all the lights out.
While I was awed by the sun on your face,
I never noticed the hurt held in your hands.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Dear Ox,


A year ago, I sent you my hopes and wishes only to be slapped hard in the face on your summer. How cruel of you to drive me off the edge of my sanity. You have no idea how painful it was for me to find myself in the pits of misery and life loathing all over again. But you weren't so cold hearted after all. With this misfortune, you led me to take the biggest leap I ever made in the 2 decades of my entire existence. Truth be told of how scared and anxious I was initially. The first blows of failures both served as insults and begged me to reconsider the arrogance in me. I was ready to retreat and reassess my alternatives. But then again, you surprised me with an army of good souls.-unexpected but much appreciated.

So no matter how much I lack the enthusiasm over the Holidays, accept my gratitude for the 365 days that you laid down for me. And for the kind hearts that you shared and allowed me to keep over the years, no matter how undeserving I am.

Now, I bid you farewell with the assurance that your reign will be remembered.