forever; you said forever

i wish i could expand on that but no, i can't. i won't.
so i'll just let the title speak for the unspoken.

overdue new year's post

So the year of the rodent, or should i say rat, is long and gone. The great 08 is now officially a part of history.

Oddly enough, I wasn't around to welcome the new year. Believe it or not, I was dead asleep inside a tent, on top of a hill, in my dad's old farm. Thus I miss the traditional bangs and clangs of whatever there is to make awful noise with. Or worse, failed to even witness the fireworks.

I'm no fan of birthdays and christmases. But I do make an effort of trying to survive through them. New Years were more of a consolation for Christmas than of being a biggie occasion.

Looking back again, 2008 probably held my greatest triumph in the last half-decade. And I am still thankful for the blessing that I passed the board exams. There's been only a few memorable moments in my 20 years of life where I truly felt glorious and alive. And the news that broke out on July 24th, 2008 is definitely on top of my list. I wish I could relive that moment forever. But clarity wears off and reality kicks in. And believe me, it sometimes could get ugly. I wouldn't bother getting into the specifics of the details but bottom line is that, the latter part of 08 didn't end pretty well for me. Not that a turning point came out of the corner. I just wish I could work on my sense of contentment. And stick to myself without having to create another identity in the absence of those whom I'm comfortable with my real self.

I'm making no sense again.

Anyway, as usual, I skipped on the over-rated resolutions part. Nobody seems to stick to them anyway.
But I did swear to myself that I will no longer rely on Chinese horoscopes and year of some random animal readings. Rather, I would learn from the mistakes of the past. [ie: watching my life pass me by].

This year, I would try to live.
Or feel alive in the very least.

So yeah, give me your best shot Ox!